Precious baby girl.

Hello beautifuls.
How are you all?

(This blog was wrote this morning but only posted now.)

So, I know that this blog is late/early. Late because I didn't post on Sunday(9th) but early because I'm posting Friday(14th). It's currently 02:46AM on Friday morning and Carter and I have just arrived back from hospital 10 minutes ago and this time, it wasn't because of me or baby Brown.

Carter's older sister had her precious little baby girl last night at 11:23PM. Michelle was thirty-four weeks pregnant, she was due for the 23rd October 2012. Everything was going perfectly fine, she did everything by the books; not telling anyone she was pregnant until her first trimester was over, reading baby books everyday, not eating anything that she wasn't supposed to, not drinking any alcohol (and she didn't smoke in the first place so that was defintely crossed out).

Michelle is 21. She's the third oldest out of the five of Carter's siblings. When she and her fiance announced she was pregnant, it was such a surprise because she had always said she didn't want kids until she was at least 26. Two weeks later, I announced my pregnancy. Michelle and I have been going out shopping together, buying baby things, etc. We were both so excited to find out that there was only a mere three weeks apart from our due dates, we even started planning our babies future. (They were going to school together, they'd be more like siblings than cousins, etc.)

Carter had only got in from work at 9PM last night, like normal he came home and ate then showered, with my swollen ankles and sore feet, I already made myself comfy in bed with my Nicolas Sparks book. Carter climbed in bedside me and was out cold within five minutes. However, I couldn't sleep at all! I kept getting this twisting feeling in my stomach, I thought it was just baby Brown moving but then ten minutes after this feeling started we got a phonecall from Carter's oldest sister.

In a blind panick, she rushed her words out about Michelle being rushed into hospital and that she wanted Carter and I there. I started shaking Carter and calling out his name; (He is such a heavy sleeper and when he's exhaused, it's even worse!) when he didn't wake, I started hitting him (NOT IN A VIOLENT WAY!). He woke up, grumpy. Just like he is when he doesn't get his rest (drama queen, right?). After telling him that Michelle was rushed into hospital, he sprung upright and grabbed the first pieces of clothing he could gather. For a split second, he forgot I was pregnant when he repeatedly started shouting 'Hurry up Katie!' when I wasn't hot on his heels.

Finally after what seemed like forever, we arrived at the hospital. Carter this time had remember I was carrying a human that was going to drop out of me in less than 10 weeks. We were lead up to a private room Michelle was moved into by a nice nurse who was waiting for our arrival.

Michelle and Carter has always had a extremely close relationship, closer than any other siblings I know. They've been best friends since day one. So when Carter appeared in the room, Michelle burst out in tears and grasped her little brother in a tight hug. She kept repeating that she was scared and that she was scared for the her baby girl (they had a gender scan done a few months ago).

Within a few minutes, Michelle was rolled away to have an emergancy c-section. Carter and I were left wandering the halls with so many thoughts going through our heads. I've never see Carter properly break down in tears until last night, when I tried to reassure him about his sister and niece he told me that, that wasn't the reason why he was crying.

He was crying because he realised how precious life is, that we couldn't tell what was around the corner. His sister and niece's life was in danger. His niece was going to be born premature and has only a 60% of survival. It got him thinking about our baby, was he/she going to be born early, would he/she have complications, would he lose me or the baby or both? Trying to calm him down, I grabbed his hands and rested them on my huge baby bump where our little one kicked; hard. That seemed to work.

At 23:23PM baby Jessica Clare was born by emergancy c-section. Immediately she was hooked up to many different machines including a feeding tube, she was rushed to BICU (baby intensive care unit). Michelle wasn't allowed to see her, she was also being closely monitored by hospital staff.

01:26AM, Carter, myself and John (Michelles fiance) was allowed to go and see the precious little girl who was placed inside an inkubator. She looked so small, so delicate but so healthy. At 01:45AM, it was announced that Michelle and Jessica would both be fine and they were both doing amazingly well. Michelle had preeclampsia which can cause miscarriage, still-birth, future health promblems in both mother and baby's case. Thankfully the doctors managed to get Jessica out before any of that could happen.

It made me realise that life is even more precious than I thought. It also made me even more scared but hopefully with the people I have by my side, me and baby Brown will make it through safe and happy.

Pregnancy tracker: 30 weeks and 6 days.

Stay beautiful!
Katieleigh (and baby Brown);xoox